I dont know why, since i was in senior high school, i'm not confident with myself. I always feels that i'm ugly and fat, and many moreeee the negativity in life. Some of shitty and heartless boys told me that the level of my beautifulness is below of the average, and somehow i belive in that. After that i'm being more and more unconfident, when i use makeup i dont feel like i'm beautiful anymore too. So i'm just being me with nothing on me. No make ups, and lazy to dress up. Because i didnt get it why i do those things when they said that i'm below average, it just wont worked out for me.